Ujaala, born in India, adopted in India.
INTRO: Fellow adoptee Ujaala, shares her story with us, in her own words. She speaks of her birthday, and the questions and emotions connected to that day. I think many adoptees can find her words relatable.
“Pandemic birthdays are strange in a year filled with unfathomable grief, disappointment, anxiety & loss.
The big 40!
The day was spent in the love & kindness of extended family, friends, and well-wishers.
I chose gratitude to tap into what feels authentic
And then there’s this sadness
That creeps up
Every. single. year.
louder & stronger
Shaking it off becomes heavier
A constant gnaw
Where does this sadness come from?
I’ve been reflecting a lot on fear & envisioning what lives beyond it
Go for the jugular, identify the emotions & feelings, I told myself this year.
Angry for not being able to articulate feelings of
Feelings of being abandoned, unwanted, discarded
And then it hits me
Every 23rd of October
I think of my birth mother
Has she forgotten?
Has she remembered?”
Written by Ujaala
If you with to connect with Ujaala, she is on Instagram and you can find her HERE.